"Thus nature has no love for solitude, and always leans, as it were, on some support; and the sweetest support is found in the most intimate friendship."
- Cicero

"Advice is like snow; the softer it falls, the longer it dwells upon, and the deeper it sinks into the mind."
- Samuel Taylor Coleridge

"Truth and tears clear the way to a deep and lasting friendship."

"True friendship is never serene."
- Mariede Svign

"Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born."
- Anais Nin

and this are my darlingggs and my strength in life.

"The mildest, drowsiest sister has been known to turn tiger if her sibling is in trouble."
~Clara Ortega

"When mom and dad don't understand, a sister always will. "
~Author, Unknown

"To the outside world we all grow old. But not to brothers and sisters. We know each other as we always were. We know each other's hearts. We share private family jokes. We remember family feuds and secrets, family griefs and joys. We live outside the touch of time."
~Clara Ortega

"A sister is a little bit of childhood that can never be lost. "
~Marion C. Garretty

"Our siblings. They resemble us just enough to make all their differences confusing, and no matter what we choose to make of this, we are cast in relation to them our whole lives long. " ~Susan Scarf Merrell

the reason i live through each day with tears which turns to laughters.
the one who will listen and never judge me.
the one who is faithful and with this tie, we will forever be in love.

hahhhhhh.
thats a good start huhhh? ;D

ohhhh.
and fr yr infoooo.
i aint replying tags.
haha.
why?
easy.
lazyyy uhhh!
so therefore,
in any cae of you tagging, i will either reply tag
through yr blog's tagboard/comment thingy,whichever.
and if you ddont have a blog or your link doesnt work or does not even exist
then i MIGHT reply it through my blog.
BLOG POST.
haha.
hm.
i think i will put this down on my tagboard thingy ;D

haha.
my sister just said this.
like a minute agoooo ;D

"i dont think i can treat you to Burger King.
But one day.
i promise. i PROMISE,
i will get you one BIG tubb of BEN&JERRY'S ice creaaaaaam!"

hahaha!
yessssssssssssssssssssaaaaaaaaa! ;D
i hope its any flavour i want mannn!
i have a niceee sister.
i promise i wont hate her and treat her like an irritant in my life.
haha.
syarifah syazanatul aisyah!
you ROCK like assssssss! ;D

haha.
ohhhhh!
and tmr MYOB course will be th lassssssssst!
tmr will be the exam.
anddd im so praying hard i can get a distinction ;D
haha
then baru worth my mooneyyy! ;D

i miss some of my girlfriends alrd D:
especially.
Nadhirah,Azlin and Nadhilah.
haha, i dont miss SOFIA AINI because i see her every day.
sampai naik mual.
chehhhhhhh!
no laaa ;D
haha.
at least shes the reason why i drag out of bed every morning during this holidays.
and attend the MYOB thingyyy! ;D

like Sofia said.

"with Hanna ard, i couldnt ask for more."

so i shall say.

"with Sofia ard, what more could i ask for?"

anddddd.

tonight is malam jumaat.
also known as friday night(?)
um.
malay myth says that friday nights are like "forboding(?)"
i shall say?
hah.
so.
now im off to watch K-Nite.
and thereafter i wanna watch some ghost story Keliwon.
haha, i swear i have no idea what Keliwon is.
ANDDDDDDD! ;D
FINALLY!
AT MIDNIGHT!
im gonna listen to MJ12! ;D
haha.
and theres Friday Night Special todayyy!
im hoping it would be an audio clip! ;D
haha!

im done!

SYARIFAH AZRINATUL NURULHANNA FTW! ;D

though many words are left unsaid
and things left undone,

the moment you left,it all felt confusin.g
i dont like it when you shrugged and walk away.
with my questions left unanswered.

and i know, you are dissapointed

im in schoool!

holidays.
hah.
wouldnt even call it a holidayy.
when i cant have fun.
or at least take a break from school.
where does the true meaning of holidays go to?
*sighsssssssssssssssssss!

th MYOB workshop, not bad.
i dont really see a point for a full 3 days course.
its 9am to 5 pm mind you eh.
seriously.
maybe a full 2 day course plus half day of exam la.
the software, its like computer generated like totally.
all you have to do is key in all those data/information
and the rest, its all up to the computer.
oh, it also depends on your understanding and whatsoever.

i think
i have some kind of super power
haha
oke
i shall say
special abilities.
haha.
my sister says so la

i have the ability to,
enable someone who cant sleep, sleep by them, watching me sleep.
haha.
my sister said it happen to her 2 times.
where she cant sleep,and she stare at me sleeping.
and all she knows,shes at dreamland.
cool kan?
haha.

on Saturday, me and my sister slept at ard 3am?
haha, we were talking and fooling ard and joking ard.
haha,

"terjun, golek-golek" ehh aisyahhh.
haha.

we are practicing our english.
so we kept on spatting bombasting english words to each other uh.
haha, i dint know my siter have a wide variety of vocabulary.
only that she doesnt know how to use them appropriately.
haha.

then on Mondayyyyyyy,
me and my sister watch some ghost story.
like theres 3 stories within 2 hours.
because we planned to hear MJ12 at th radioo.
its like a segment in th radio where you hear all
those paranormal thingy.
haha
just for the fun of scraing ourselves to death by the storyyy! ;D
the 3 stories right,its all about ghost under water la.
then my sister was like, "might as well put name WATER instead of BLACK NIGHT"
haha.
then i was like "if its called WATER people will think that its some kind of stupid documentry
on Water. H2O."
haha,stupid kaaaan?
yeaaaa.
veryveryvery stupidddd.

did i tell you.
i maneged to get ECLIPSE and BREAKING DAWN?!
ohhhhhemmmmmmgeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
haha.
like finally i got hold of these two books uh.
i've been yearning for this books la.
daaaa!
da complete da Twilight Saga aku.
maybe,i can place them next to my Harry Potter series.
haha.
this is sooooooo much better than all the other books i've readddd.
especially Harry Potter.
and those Chick Flicks that i seriously got myself addicted to.
so now.
im ALMOST done with Eclipse.
haha.
its nice.

and i envy Bella.
because she can love Edward forever
and Edward really loves her.
and Edward wont ever leave her because Edward can live forever.
AWWWWWWWE~
and reading ECLIPSE hurts. =X
sofiaaaaa knows whyyy!
kankankan?


OH!
i see SOFIA AINI bloggingggg
and the class is so kecohhh.
*sighssssss
we are SO DONE with today's session
but we cant go home yet because the trainer wont allow.
how devastating is that? ;D
haha, oke. no.
stop it hanna. xD

i missss someone.
awwe~
its alrd a sad thing i cant sms him because his bill is high.
and now, my only sms companion is either Sofia aini,
or Amiruuul or Amiraaah etc.
different day,different people. ;D
haha and at times my phone gets lonely.
no sms camee in or something.
haha ;D
D:
bilaaaa ni.
haha,i cnt wait until that day of the month. ;D

"I am restless, and I keep trembling
Everyone watch me as I descend
Into a feeling that's overwhelming me
I finally stopped, stopped making sense"

Run Dont Walk,Hey Monday

and im SO DONE HERE!

Before i start anything...

Faith is the light that guides you through th darkness.
love hurts.
but there is always a reason for everything that happen.
cliche,i know.
but,you see.
god's testing on yr faith.
and he is testing your patience.
girl, i heard those stories.
and i think you had enough. you are hanging on th wire.
between falling or pull yourself back up.
he is treating you like ass shit.
though love,sometimes makes you do stupid things,
he is not in any right position to do this stuffs to you.
i aint poking my nose into yr private life,no.
but to hear all those happening to my best friend,
how does that makes me feel?
how does that makes me feel about you?
i feel sorry for you,
im superrr pissed with him
and god knows how much i want to go up to him and smack his face.
and say, "YOU DONT AT ALL DESERVE THE LOVE FROM MY BESTFRIEND. you give her shits and you expect her to give you her love when she already does. ALL HER LOVE, and you still do NOT feel it. what are you? a mannequin?"
this is pass and parcel of life or whatever you call it.
live by this, like me,
"have hope, faith and believe"
i pray that you will grow stronger with every passing day.
i hope that your heart that bleeds everyday, will eventually stop.

&you know how pathetic i can be when i give advices.
but i will lend a listening ear.
i will try to give advices.
if that will make you feel better.
for, i speak through experiences.

just so you know,B.

I'll be right here where you need me
Anytime just keep believing
And I'll be right here
If you ever need a friend
Someone to care and understand
I'll be right here

All you have to do is call my name
No matter how close or far away
Ask me once and I'll come
I'll come runnin
And when I can't be with you dream me near
Keep me in your heart and I'll appear

All you gotta do is turn around
Close your eyes
Look inside I'm right here
Isn't it great that you know that
I'm ready to go wherever you're at
Anywhere
I'll be there

All you have to do is call my name
No matter how close or far away
Ask me once and I'll come
I'll come runnin
And when I can't be with you dream me near
Keep me in your heart and I'll appear
All you gotta do is turn around
Close your eyes
Look inside I'm right here
Whenever you need me

There's no need to worry
You know that
I'm gonna be
Right here
Ask me once and
I'll come
I'll come runnin
And when I can't be with you dream me near
Keep me in your heart and I'll appear
All you gotta do is turn around
Close your eyes
Look inside
I'm right here
Oh yeah yeah
I'm right here

;Right Here,Miley Cyrus

you are not alone,B.
you have me,us.

P.S. if you cant take it any longer.
an all you feel like doing is cry.
just burst.
tears,they dry on its own.
though your heart will hurt,tear and bleeds.
tears,they do heal wounds.
but the pain, god knows.
have hope faith and believe.
i will pray.

my little girl/B.

i hate it.
i hate to see my girlfriends having happiness snatched away from them.
it tears me up inside.
stay strong girls.
you will pull through.

andddddddddddddddddddddddddd.
ms SOFIA aini taught me a new value in life this three days.
"The more the person HATES you, the more you should LOVE the person."
and her reason?
simple.
"i found out its a burden to hate,so i shall stick to love"
so, im going to practice that.
hah.

and toady.
during lunch, i got s super pissed.
theres this tables and chairs outside the canteen and a group of girls sat there.
and me and sofia were in th canteen,eating.
behind us were a group of boys.
and they are throwing like stones or bubblegum rolled to a ball or plasticine, i d k.
but while they are throwing one hit sofia's head. another hit mine.
but what im totally pissed it.
one of th girls threw one and landed on my bowl that i JUST started eating.
JUST tauuu.
god knows how pissed i am.
Kindda told them off,nadhirah did too.
but i was superrr pissed to talk that i just stomped off.
abd whats up with "marah sangat nampak"
HEY!
its MY FOOD MY MONEY MY LUNCH.
who th heck are you to bother me.
you can settle your own business outside canteen kan?
tak payah nak campak campak bendabenda ni semua.
kalau nak campak campak uh kat luar canteen ke apa ke
bila near each other
abe bila da kena orang tak tau nak cakap sorry.
perangai jangan macam sial la please.
korang are like just sec 1.
at least have some courage to say sorry or something.
ni tidak, i must go there to tell you to say sorry.
if you can respect your own friends.
what makes it so difficult to respect your school mates?
think it over.
you people are forgiven a n w.
just dont do it again.

ughhhhhhhhhhhh!

tmr.
is th last day of th term
but it aint th beginning of holidays.
because as i said my holidays,
are so jam packed with activities.
one after another! ;D
haha.
but its life.
and i love it.
and since its th last day of th term
im going to spend some times with my girlfriends.
namely.
SOFIA aini and AMIRAH. ;D
its been a while since we go out together ;D
haha, esok yea babes! ;D
hahaa!

at least there is something to look forward to.
im done for today! ;D

ohh hanna,
please grow taller. D:
ohh goddd,
please,i beg you.
please make me taller.
i dont mind if to you taller is just one inch.
just make me taller.

haha.

you,
im sorry for whatever shits i say/wrote.
that one way or another hurt you,or make you look baddd or whatever.
you know me since forever, i really go by emotions.
so,im sorryy.
and i know this looks/sounds pathetic.

hah.
like the person will read this post anw.
still, at least im really am sorry.

this week and weeks to go by.
it is tiring.
very tiring.
the Sajak thing.
well,at least we are on the right track.
and im not really sure of th pace we are going by now is fine.
but i will pray so that it will all go real smoothly.

anyone free on th 28th? ;D

heyy!
who would have expected.
the guitar i bought like on october(?)
is finally put to good use.
haha, yes.
i've start playing it since weeks ago. ;D
haha, and i will be lying if i were to say its fine.
because my fingers are now screaming at me.
but its for a start.
at least now, i know notes on guitar and how to strum
rather than just strumming randomly. ;D
im so proud of myselffff! ;D
*BEAMMMMMMMMMMS WIDEEEEEEEEEEEELY!

and now,
i want a thinner guitar pick.
is it thinner?
is that the term you use?
haha! ;D
someone called me a guitar geek when i asked him.
"ehhh, does my guitar needs tuning?"
haha.
nonsense la kau.
and stop it with "sekali ketik sepuluh yang datang tau!"
very th irritating la.

yea, and since dear me cant go to shops and buy one decent pick.
i should maybe stick to mine i d k-what-happen-to-my-pick, pick.
and seriously, my guitar needs tuning,like right now.
haha, because it now sound very funny.
after i hit th headstock to my window pane.
haha, careless ehhhh.
and im so proud of myself that now i can play candles on my guitar ;D
haha, well almost perfect eh.
maklum la,budak baru belajar.
and why am i boasting about guitar here? ;D

a n w.
i miss talking to some people.
after all this life shits that happen to me,
i realise how i actually ignored them
and i really have LOADS to catch up on.

i miss talking to A.
though i see you everyday in school.
i miss talking to U.
thought we just chat online only.
but i miss talking to you and laughing.
i miss talking to S.
and i seriously want to meet you again.
maybe go out for lunch or something. :D
(i cant put names or they'll scream at me,haha.weird friends huh?)

hmmmm,i suddenly have th craving to eat TWIX.
haha,its been awhile since i consume chocolates.
padahal ada two boxes waiting for me in front of my eyes now. ;D
haha.
nahhh,save it for days i really need chocolates.

um,
i hope it rain tonight.
yes,i really really want it to rain with thunder and lightning.
it makes my night sleepless.
so i can stay up and listen to MJ12.
its Misteri Jam 12 b t w.
haha.
its all those supernatural stories you hear on th radio.
haha.
i've missed loads of MJ12 recently.
;D

i serious ly want to work up on my stamina.
and i want to do well in 2.4 which is like just around th corner.
haha,i baddddddddly want a GOLD this year for NAPHA(?)
alaaa~
th fitness thingy la. ;D
haha.

and now i wonder, why am i ranting random shits?
haha.

oh~
and this week is th last week of schoool! ;D
haha, and just when i though i can set dates for group studys.
i remembered i got MYOB workshop.
danggggg!
there goes my holidaysss. D:
im a sadsad miserable girl.
if not fr th 160 bucks.
i think i will skipskipskip th wokshop.
still,
on a lighter note.
i think i can benefit from this workshop.
and thats why im going to have full attendance
for this workshop.
haha, spoken like a true dedicated girl to accounting.
chehhh!
padahal,padahal. ;D

oke,its 2230hrs alrdddd.
haha, 10:30pm uhhhh.
im offf. ;D

i cant help but to think of youu.
crush?

i aint talking about you,no.
im not here for your entertaiment

She's starin' at me,
I'm sittin', wonderin' what she's thinkin'.
Mmmmm
Nobody's talkin', '
Cause talkin' just turns into screamin'.
Ohhh...
And now is I'm yellin' over her,
She's yellin' over me.
All that that means Is neither of us is listening,
(And what's even worse).
That we don't even remember why were fighting.

So both of us are mad for...

Nothin'
(Fighting for).
Nothin'
(Crying for).
Nothin'
(Whoahhh).
But we won't let it go for
Nothin'
(No not for)
Nothin'.
This should be nothin'
to a love like what we got.

Ohhh,

baby... I know sometimes It's gonna rain...
But baby, can we make up now
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
(Cant sleep through the pain).
Girl, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me).
No, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me)

Ohhh no no no...

And it gets me upset, girl
When you're constantly accusing.
(Askin' questions like you've already known).
We're fighting this war, baby
When both of us are losing.
(This ain't the way that love is supposed to go).

Whoaaaaaaaaa...

[What happened to workin' it out].

We've falled into this place
Where you ain't backin' down
And I ain't backin' down.
So what the hell do we do now...
It's all for...

Nothin'
(Fighting for).
Nothin'
(Crying for).
Nothin'
(Whoahhh).
But we won't let it go for
Nothin'
(No not for)
Nothin'.
This should be nothin'
to a love like what we got.

Ohhh, baby...

I know sometimes
It's gonna rain...
But baby, can we make up now
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
(Cant sleep through the pain).
Girl, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me).
No, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me)

Ohhh no no no...

Oh baby this love ain't gonna be perfect,
(Perfect, perfect, oh oh).
And just how good it's gonna be.
We can't fuss and we can't fight
Long as everything alright between us
Before we go to sleep.
Baby, we're gonna be happy.

I know sometimes
It's gonna rain...
But baby, can we make up now
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
(Cant sleep through the pain).
Girl, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me).
No, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me)

Ohhh no no no...

;Mad- Ne-yo

this post.
i will dedicate to my darlings.
the reason my faith is so strong,and th reason i pull through.
and who is going through hard times.
the moment i free myself from guilt and heart break.
they are infact, the reason i made it through my hardtimes.
this is for you girls.
you know who you are.
buzz off if you cnt take long talks like your parents will give and you cant spare cliches

at least, you did talk to me.
and at least, you know whats wrong.
i hope you will get better.
i pray you will grow stronger.
with every single tears you shed.
this is life.
sometimes, it sucks.
sometimes,it just go your way.
but whats life without challenges and problems?
whats life when everything go so perfectly?
take this as a learning point in life.
for if you choose to take it positively.
you will get over it.
you will recover from setbacks and ass shits in your life.
life,it can never be perfect.
life,takes great courage to face.
and this point of time.
then you realise.
which is good and which is bad.
who is trustworthy and
who is just behind you waiting to laugh when you fall.
humans.
they cant escape from jealousy and hatred.
they cant watch another succeed.
with all might, at least some will try to bring you down.
i beg
you to be strong.
dont let their actions and words pull you down.
for your effort and hard work had made you come this far.
and to see it all crumble down.
it will be a waste.
im sorry,im one of those humans who wants to pull you down.
but at times.
its true
and at times,you just cant help yourself but to agree.
to think it all over.
you are in fact.
part of m life.
and my world, it revolves around you.
without you, life,means nothing.
remember.
humans, live to judge.
and humans lived to be judge.
but its up to you.
to either change their judgement towards you 360.
or just let it be,until one day
they realise.
you are, infact better off then judging you as it made you
a much better person.
im here.
and i will always be.
i wont push you down to the ground.
cry no more,baby.
it hurts to see you in so much pain.
pull through.
remember those wrds you said to me when i am going through hard times.
i love you.
and i will always do.



♥SOFIA aini

sayang,
i know the whole year without him, it hurts.
and it still does.
and i know those 3 months.
are the best days of your life.
and i know.
thinking of him.
will at times cure your pain.
and at times it hurts so much that you'd die.
i remember how you used to be so happy with him.
and i perfectly remember how crushed you were when it all ends.
you think of him everyday.
you were ever so concern of him eventhough he isnt a part of your life anymore.
you are a strong girl.
you will have to get over him one day.
you will have to learn to accept fate that he isnt meant to be yours.
if he really deserves you, give him another chance to prove himself.
another chance to redeem himself.
though i know its not easy,to accept th reason for yr pain through out this years.
i know,sayang.
the feeling.
that feeling you are telling me about.
the feeling you cant shake off.
and th more you think of him.
the more it hurts.
but you just want to think of him because at times you could feel
his presence so near you.
nothing could offset that feeling,sayang.
just have faith, stay strong.
hold on.
i wont leave you,ever.
because you have always been there to hear my cries.
and you have always been there to save me when i fall
into darkness.
you,my savior, my sayang, my girlfriend,
are th most strongest person i've ever met,
in my whole entire life.
keep holding on,sayang.



♥nurNADHIRAH

MY HUGE PART OF MY LIFE!
syarifah syazanatul aisyah.
just so you know.
i have never grown tired of your little stories
you tell me every single day you come home from school.
they just add on spice with my life.
and i love to listen to your whines,cries troubles and doubts.
when you just come home,open th room door and say
"aku benci uhhhh si (_______)"
or
"i hate today!"
and it hurts when you come home and say.
"i cried to day in school, i cant take it anymore"
and seeing you come home woth a smile and say
"i LOVE today"
which you seldom do.
your little stories.
are just little tiny bits of pieces of life that keep me going on strong.
remember my dear sister,
those people who hates you.
who calls you names.
who backstabs you.
who just wouldnt put their nosy noses into your life.
they are envious of you.
they just want to watch you go down,down,down,down.
and eveytime you tell me this person says your ugly or you suck like babi shit,
i feel like smacking their faces.
you are my sister.
THEY DONT KNOW YOU THEY WAY I KNOW YOU!
who are they to judge you uh?
though at times i just tell you to shut it when you are telling your stories.
or at times i just say you suck, and i hate you and get a life and back off life stalker.
i just meant th other way round.
i want to say how much i really love you and how much i care fr you.
but i dont know how to put it to words.
because YOU,little girl
cant take mushy stuffs.
and come on!
which sister gave their older sister who is sitting 10 metres away from you 5 seconds to
kiss you?
and hug you?
call me being over protective.
but i have known you since your first blink on earth.
at night,when you are asleep and i watch you how peaceful you sleep.
i just pray that God wont take you away from me.
because i cant part from you.
remember sister,
ignore whatever bull shits they say about you.
you know yrself better than they do.
prove them that you are not the kind of girl they go ard judging and putting you down.
prove them wrong.
you are what you are.
sister,
no words can describe how i owe my whole life to you.
the nights you try to keep awake to listen to my cries.
the times you pat my back and say "its oke hanna."
and the times you turn my problems to jokes.
you are the reason i become this strong and have come this far.
and i love you for that.
iloveyou syarifah syazanatul aisyah.

♥Syarifah Syazanatul Aisyahh

im not being just nice.
i just hate seeing happiness snatched away from them.

i havent fall,
neither have i stumble.
i have yet to falter.
and did not even stutter.
losing you, have not make me even an inch weaker.
instead,it makes me much stronger of a person
i think i could not be.
much stronger that you think i am.

th SECONDARY ONE NPCC ANNUAL CAMPP was niceeeeee.
well,at least i hadd my bit of funn.
eeventhough part of th campp i was not really happy withh.
but whats done is DONE,so over.
ohhh, did i tell youuu?
my best friend, there the picture on top
planned it.
with th help of her ACC.
GOOD JOB WELL DONE! ;D
or like Ma'am Shafira sayss hers.
"GOOD DONE WELL JOB!"
good done well job eh?
haha.

you,i need to talk to you.
people are talking about you.
but i dont know if you seem to realise.
people, including me.
i dont know who is changing now.
you,me or others?
just so you know.
if you happen to look behind you,
a bunch of people who
don't-really-like-you are just following you around.
waiting for you to stumble and fall.
i dont like to see you so.
talk to me,at least? D:

anw, the camppp was really really tiringgg.
imagine less than 2 hours of sleep.
and th next day,endless activity.
hah,i thought th camp would never enddd.
haha, well it does.
i was SO FREAKING tiredddd,that
the moment i reach home,i took a bath(LIKE FINALLY! a decent bath!)
get changed and slept!
haha.
it was ard 7:45 thennn, i was tireddddddddddddddddd.
and i only woke up at 09:30am!
haha, an almost 14 hours of sleep! ;D
well,at least that made up my lost of sleep due to campp.
haha!

suddenly i have this urge to go karaoke.
haha, any takers? ;D

tmr,it will be mondayy.
i hope i wont get those draggggggy monday blues.
andd tmrs lesson will last until 2:15.
EVEN more draggyyy. D:
but i hope otherwise.
yes,im counting on you grilfriends.
and maybe all those people who i meet anywhere,everywhere.
ohhh!
and my start of th day.
THAT,im really counting on it!
haha,because baddd start to th day equals to badddd mood and equals to baddd day.
and i hate baddd days. D:
because it really sucks.
and i just feel like throwing tantrums.
haha,and th victim will be miss SOFIA aini.

Thursday night, it rained real heavily.
with lighting and thunder.
i cant sleep, as raindrops falling, sounded like rocks.
lighting,flashed like lighting up th night sky.
thunder roared and my heart starts to beat fast.
i WAS scareddd, real scaredd.
then i remember how i use to be not scared of this anymore,when i was with you.
your comforts and you voice.
like you were protecting me from the world.
the rain, triggers th memory of you.
that night, reminds me of you.
that moment, made me realise how i really miss you.
that second, made me cry.


when you wear your heart on your sleeves.

sandiwarakah selama ini
setelah sekian lama kita telah bersama

inikah akhir cerita cinta
yang sekalu aku banggakan
didepan mereka

entah dimana
kusembunyikan rasa malu
kini harus aku lewati
sepi hariku
tanpa dirimu lagi

biarkan kini ku berdiri
melawan waktuku
untuk melupakanmu
walau sakit hatiku
namun aku bertahan

-Akhir Cerita Cinta; Glenn Fredly

today.
it was th thirdd day of Geek GIG WEEK.
haha, oke whichever it is called.
anw,its just a wholee week of performances during recess ;D
andddddd yes.
im one of them who were singing with Nadhirah,Azlin and Sofia.
and I THINK we did a pretty sweet/nice/good jobbb.
haha ;D
i was super nervousssss i tell you! ;D
i was shaking all all this butterflies in my stomach and all those sort.
but it overcame it,somehow.
haha. ;D
i likee the performance.
ohhh, and th performance after us, Adila and Asyqin.
damnnn,they're good ;D
haha.

a n w.
lifes a boreeee recently.
its the same routine every singlee day.
well,almost.
haha.
but at least im learning and studying and gaining knowledge.
ohhh,and see my darlinggs and o things together.

im looking forward for this Friday's NPCC camppp.
its a sec one camp.
something like orientation camp.
haha, yeaaaaa.
thats the ONLY thing i look forward to this week.
and the week after.
it will be a sesi raptai.
something like Technical Rehearsal, on th Sajak Competition.
haha,
another "butterflies-and-all-other-creepy-crawlies-reproducing-in-my-stomach issue! ;D
funny when i think of it.
when i want to do something like on stage or maybe to just a group of people.
i will get so super nervous, and after it all or maybe halfway through it, i really really enjoyed myself.
like every moment of it, well, except for being nervous.
which leads me to wonder.
is my self-esteem THAT low? ;D
haha,or maybe im just shyyy. (chehhh,step!)
and wonder again, when exactly can i overcome stage frights? ;D
WHEEN?
because this feeling irritates me,like alot alot.

other than life in school.
im moving on quite well.
well,at least im moving, better than giving up on this whole
moving on thinggg.
it just sound so,silly.
all this shits, are way backkkk,at the back of my headdd.
maybe a moment or two,they will just hit play.
and all the memories will go by like a catching a movie.
and after that,it all fadess.
just waiting for th next time to play those memories again when i allow it to.
i dont want yesterday, ANYMORE.

it will take my whole life to forget this sequel of love,
though i have this feeling of wanting you away from me when you're close.
and close to me when you're away.

anddd thats thaaaat! xD